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Feeling Overwhelmed

As I venture through the forest of my AP tests, I’ve been struggling with expectations and stress.

This week and next week, I took and will take my 2022 AP Exams. I’ve worked to master these exams since August of last year.

Despite this, I’ve still felt stressed and overwhelmed as I enter the cramming phase of studying for my AP tests. My goal is to get a 5 on all four AP tests I’m taking this year: AP Chemistry, AP Environmental Science, AP English Language, and AP Physics 1

On Monday, I took the AP Chemistry test. I felt that I did well enough to get a 5, but I am slightly worried. I don’t think I did too well on the FRQs, which most other people said were very easy. This scares me, and I may have gotten a 4. This may not seem like a big deal to most, but I’ve worked incredibly hard on Chemistry for the past school year, and I don’t want all my time to go to waste. I know I can get a 5 on that test on any day – I just could not answer the questions to the best of my abilities.

On Tuesday, I took the AP Environmental Science test. I felt much better about this test. It felt like a pretty easy test, and I’m 90% sure I got a 5 unless something went terribly wrong on the multiple-choice section.

Today is Wednesday. Next Tuesday and Thursday, I have my AP English Language and AP Physics 1 exams. And I’m terrified for these.

I know I want a 5 but that there is a decent chance I can get a 4. In English, I’m doing pretty well on the multiple-choice questions, but I’m afraid that my essays will hold me back from a 5.

In Physics, I’m not doing too great at either. My average MCQ score lies in the 50% range, which is nowhere near enough to earn a 5 on the test. My average FRQ score also lies in the same range. With these scores in mind, I’m projected to get a 3 – nowhere close to a 5.

My only hope is to keep on reviewing and understanding concepts – especially for Physics.

With English, I’m pretty confident that I can improve by doing a couple more practice essays from previous years. With Physics, I’m not sure what I can do to improve in such a short period of time.

For now, I just feel overwhelmed. And as a result, I don’t have motivation to do any work. I need to nail down my Physics knowledge if I want to get a 5, and I will do my best.

Hopefully, I’ll look back on this and be happy with the 5s I receive. But if not, I’m not sure how I’ll feel. I will feel disappointed. I will also feel that I didn’t give it my best, even though I will for all of my exams.

In the grand scheme of things, I know a 4 on an AP test vs. a 5 doesn’t have too much of an impact. But it’s important for me. And if I don’t do great? That’s just life – a series of mistakes we make to improve upon ourselves.